Writing not publishing

I”ve been writing, but for a number of reasons not hitting the publish button.

I used to know how to fix education, now I don’t so I stopped telling everyone how to teach.

I used to have deep thoughts on what was coming next. Now I don’t.

I’m not sure what I want and I’m not sure what you want, so consequently I don’t have anything.

I have some great ideas, but usually when out walking. This is bad for two reasons. I don’t get out and walk enough; I don’t write them down when I get home.

I have noticed a big thing abut my teaching. It isn’t nearly as good as I want it to be.

When I left the classroom I got into blogging and twitter which taught me so much about the classroom and what it could be, that I longed to get back and try it out. That really didn’t happen for about 7 years. I spent a lot of time in the classroom, but not as the writer of lessons and not as the teacher of lessons.

I’ve been back for 3 years now and I”ve learned a few things.

  1. Teaching without a textbook is not fun.
  2. Writing curriculum while teaching is almost impossible
  3. Focusing on teaching is wrong.
  4. Worrying about the future doesn’t help

The first two are related. I’m using a quasi textbook right now (engageny) and I’m finding that when I’m not spending an hour or more each day trying to create a lesson from scratch that Ijust have so much more time for the students.

Having a curriculum written out means I spend more time critically thinking about that curriculum and making positive changes for my students. Sure next year I might toss 90% of the lessons, but having that starting point is what makes it possible.

Right I can’t make changes to my students, so I have to focus on changes in my behavior. The changes in my behavior are not limited to adjusting the method of teaching. In reality that is just wrong. What I really need to do is focus on building relationships with my students. Then they will adjust to me and I will also start making changes that are more personalized towards them.

I worry constantly about the future. Mostly, “will my students get a good enough education from me?” I might be that one teacher they think about 20 years from now, but most likely not. I’ll just be another math teacher and that means I have to focus on bringing the math alive.

I’m back in the classroom now and relearning how to teach. LIfe has changed, but in many respects life is still the same. Lessons are still a hook, a body, and a summary, but more people are thinking about the overall flow and that is improving teaching. INdividual comments are still king even when people talk about standardized grading or PARCC testing. Students don’t learn until they do and they wont do until they want. My job is to make them want to do math, then give them the opportunity.

I’m starting the next chapter, relearning how to teach. My journey towards National Board certification starts now.

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